Too many voices

Hi My name is Alyssa. I'm 15 and I'm a major fangirl. If anyone wants to message me that's fine. I might not reply straight away but I will reply eventually.
My books are probably crap but I like writing so I'm going to continue doing so.

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Laughter is healthy. That's what they say,
But what if all my laughter and smiles and jokes are just to hide my pain away.
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Don't you look, Don't you see, I'm a monster. 
It's inside of me. Struggling.
Trying to get out, Trying to break free.
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