i remember i would kiss you and i would feel as if i was drowning.
i remember i would kiss her and i would taste her asphyxiating pain on my lips.
and the touch of your unkind hands would send chills through my blood.
i could always feel the way her body trembled from beneath my grasp.
i hated my skin and the way it looked in the mirror everyday.
the hideous marks on her lifeless body existed only because i put them there.
some nights the nightmares would be too much for me to handle.
i would pretend to be asleep when she cried and screamed into her pillow.
the world was a gruesome battle and there were days when i couldn't fight anymore.
there were days when i was the one who fired at her and crippled her with my words.
you were a storm in my eyes; screaming thunder and ghastly skies.
i used to strike down upon her like a flash of lightning and set her soul on fire.
i ran to you when i needed to escape the shadows of tragedy lurking around the world.
i'm sorry she didn't realize that i was the one she needed to escape from.
you sucked the life out from my veins but i loved you.
i loved her.
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toxic
Poetryand our bloodstreams were poisoned by this toxic love. [[lowercase intended.]]