may.

#3 numb

every time the sun kisses me,
i dont feel it anymore.

or when the rain sobs above me,
i dont feel it anymore.

or when the people invite me,
i dont accept them anymore.

i remember my happiness leaking,
dripping
like heavy rains that soak rooftops.

i shut everything away now,
i push everything away now,

i started locking doors,
and closing curtains
my shadows have become invisible.

ive stopped writing stories,
painting sceneries,
snapping polaroids
and experiencing adventures.

ive stopped sleeping,

i stay awake thru the night,
and i dont know if im tolerating the pain,
or im just numb.
but i dont feel anymore,
i cant feel anymore.

24/01/2015