Painful Reality (Magcon)// completed.

Chapter Thirty-Seven

Addie

"Hey Tay, im really sorry that this is happening but I needed to calm down and I thought of talking to you" I speak "I hope you don't mind.."

"Addie don't worry about it, I'd do anything to help you out, you're so close to me, and I'd do anything for you!" Taylor answers

"And I'd do anything for you too Tay, I just don't know what's going on with me anymore" I shake my head "it's like these.. These voices in my head just.. they just won't go away and I always feel worthless and just watching a truck drive by me.. it's so hard Tay, it's so fucking hard to not jump out in front of it(A/N my actual feelings.).. why do they hate me, why are my parents dead; my brother unloving and and alcoholic.. why is there no love left in the world for me.. please just tell me I'm not crazy Tay, I need to hear it."

"Ads.. you're not crazy but.. But I think therapy might help you. If these are all your thoughts and feelings then.. then I don't want to see them get too real because loosing you might be the worst thing that could happen to me. I need you here. in your darkest times come to me and I will hold you until the tears stop and the pain goes away, until the silence becomes uncomfortable, that's when I will calm you down with soft words to show you how much you mean to so many of us.. please open up to me, pour your heart out until you cannot speak anymore. because that's when I'll be there waiting to gather all the peaces and help you fit them back together. I care about you and want to see you get better.." Tay says grabbing my hands and looking into my eyes

The silence isn't uncomfortable or awkward, but it carefully swallows me, healing my thoughts. knowing someone cares about you makes you feel good and whole, but it doesn't take the pain away.