The Destiny's Game(UNDER MAJOR EDITING/ON HOLD)

CHAPTER 44

*CHAD'S POV

Damn it. After namin mag usap ni Akira nagstay pa ko sa may garden. Napaisip ako... am I really going to leave Aira. Fck! Iniisip ko palang nasasaktan na ko. We're just starting then here I am planning to leave her here without saying anything.

It feels so unreal. Oh God I know that I'm not a perfect son for my parents, I am not an intelligent student, Iam not a nice friend but caring in my ways, I am not perfect. I am not that nice to start with but can you please give us more time. I looked at the sky... Its cloudy. Like my thoughts it was blurry.

I can't intake that I'm doing this shts. I promised her that I'll be with her, to love her but damn it shts really do happen. Napasigaw nalang .ako sa frustration.

"AAAAAAAH DAMN IT! FCK!" buti nalang walang tao sa garden dahil maaga pa. Nagulat ako nung may humawak sakin.

" Chad! What is happening?!" si Aira... Niyakap ko agad siya.

" I love you babe, I really do. I am sorry. I am sorry babe. I love you. Damn I don't w-anna let g-go of you." napaiyak na ko damn I am so gay.

" What is happening babe? I don't get you. Don't want to let me go? I am confused babe. Ano bang problema?" she lifts my chin and look into my eyes.

" n-nothing babe. Don't mind me." hindi ko kayang tignan siya sa mata kaya umiwas ako. Pero hinarap niya ulit ako sakanya.

" Babe look at me... Come on babe. Hindi kita pipilitin na sabihin sakin kung ano ang nangyayari but I just want you to know that I am here. Handa akong makinig, you can tell me everything. Maghihintay ako." tapos niyakap niya ko. I hug her tighter.

" Yeah, sorry babe. I know I am making you worried. I-I love you babe."

" Natural lang na mag alala ako babe... I love you too. Tara na kailangan mo.na mag-ayos uwi na tayo." tapos hinawakan niya yung kamay ko at sabay kami pumasok sa loob.

Kung pwede lang na wag kitang bitawan Aira. Kung kaya ko lang magpakaselfish ginawa ko na. Kung kaya ko lang iiwas ka sa sakit aangkinin ko na lahat.

"Babe you're so off today. Kinakausap kita hindi mo ko pinapansin. "

" Sorry, what was that again?" sabi ko tapos I kissed hwr forehead.

" Sabi ko hinding hindi ka na makakatikim ng alcohol ulit. Grabe nakailang glasses ka ba sa party? Kung hindi ka lang galing sa sakit binugbog na kita." a lie... Yun ang alam niya puro kasinungalingan I wanted to tell her that it wasn't the reason but I can't. Alam kong masasaktan ko lang siya. And I am not that selfish to do that.