shattered n.g.

nine

"I'm sorry Ocean. I'm so incredibly sorry.

I wish I never sat next to her.

I wish I never invited her.

I wish I never answered the phone.

I wish I never met her.

When you came back, I was so undeniably happy. Sitting at home, I had nothing else to think about except the possible look on your face if you ever found out.

It hurt. I know it hurt you more. But knowing I was going to put you through pain whenever you found out killed me with guilt.

To keep me from witnessing and causing pain, I decided not to tell you.

I didn't want her to kiss me, I swear it.

When she kissed me, I pushed her away immediately. I got up and opened the door for her to leave.

But it still happened."

I don't want to hear any more of this.

Even seeing his face reddened and stained with tears brings me no mercy. Nash should've known better. I should have known better.

He never really cared.

He's just full of lies.