Poem: My sad apology letter

I'm sorry that I was never the daughter you wanted me to be

The daughter who gets straight A's

The daughter who who would never smoke or drink

The daughter who's so holy, and would never have sex before marriage

I'm sorry I was the daughter who couldn't keep her fucking legs closed

I'm sorry that his lips pressed against my neck drove me to lose my last bit of innocience

I'm sorry that I let a man control my actions

And because of the males flesh I've lied and deceived the women who gave me life

I thought he'd like me more if I'd made myself seem older

Little did I know he ruined my life slowly

I'm sorry that I let him fuck me raw every night with an infected dick

I'm sorry I gave it up so easily, and loved every fucking second of it

I'm sorry that I've made a bottle of alcohol my comforter

I'm sorry that pain killers and hitting myself feels so damn good

I'm sorry that I enjoy day dreams of different ways I can end my life

A daughter who could've had it all, but preferred to lay with the devil

I'm sorry for letting my "brothers" have their way with me

I'm sorry for being so young and having no idea what took place

I'm sorry I never told them to stop

I'm sorry for staining your pillows every night with silent tears and screams

I'm sorry for being so naive

I'm sorry that my heart is black but my smile is pink

I'm sorry that getting high felt too fucking good , but getting low felt even better

I'm sorry that I cover my problems with makeup and silence

And no matter how long its been . . .

I still have mental and emotional break downs

My mind is corrupted

If I'm not angry at myself and the world , I'm sad

I'm sorry that I ever let it get so far

Im sorry that he ruined your daughter

And he's still going on in this world smiling and happy with his new girl

Yet I'm still broken

Im sorry that I was never the daughter you wanted me to be