Read Me, Teach Me, Love Me (on hold)

Prologue

Prologue

Entry 1:

Hello there, I'm Hanna Marie Mitchelle. Im 16 years old, and live in BostonMassachusetts. I am extremely chubby, and that's my problem. That's the reason I'm writing in this stupid thing. If I really had a choice I would be sitting on my laptop and fangirling over the greatest boy band ever, One Direction. Writing in this is supposed to help me "love myself more" atleast that's what my father told me. A few years back I was very fit and slim. I cheered and danced, but then I had an accident and hurt my knee. Ever since then I became, well lazy. But I don't care I love it. I may seem like a girl who loves life, and enjoys being with friends and family, but in reality I hate myself. I hate how I look. And what's worse, I hate how I do nothing about it. It makes me hate myself even more. I see myself as ugly and fat. I find myself gross, but I shouldn't right? Well I do, and even I know that. I mean kids at school even let me know I'm ugly. Kids are always saying "she's so fat." And "Why does a fat cow go to the school." That makes me even more insecure than I already am.

I always dream that The wonderful and beautiful Louis Tomlinson ,( a.k.a Love of my life) will find me and love me for me. Not some skinny bitch. He will love me for what's on the inside and not outside. This Boy makes me feel beautiful, he makes forget the insecurities. I love him with all my heart, yet he doesn't even know I exist. And even if he met me he wouldn't want me. Who would? He's famous and deserves someone equally as beautiful. Which will never be me. Well I seem to be rambling so, i'll stop writing now. Until I right again

-Hanna

Reading my journal again brings back so many memories. From feeling un-loved to loved in a span of 48 hours. To so many problems and obstacles throwen in my way. I never in a million years would ever think of me being where I am today. I have a family, friends, and a loving husband who I never thought could love me back. All just because of a journal. When I first starting writing in it, never did I think that it could bring me so much joy, hate, love, and most of all my soulmate.

I should start from the beginning, It all started the day my dad got me this stupid journal....

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AN- so this is just the prologue,but I will continue in December with it. So in a way it's a sneak peak lol. well I hope you like it. I can already tell I'm going to have fun writing it. So many ideas :3