Goddess' first love

4th

"You look so grumpy, what happened to your meeting?"

"Nothing worth a converstion."

"Oh okay," nagfocus na lang si Cass sa pagkain niya, she knows I am not in the mood to talk. That meeting is one of the stupidest meeting I've ever attended to. Full of shitty excuses and lack of solutions. If only I can fire them all at once, call me heartless but I don't need incompetent employees.

I sigh as I take another bite, if only I can go to that place now, I just want to be alone with my thoughts. But this is the fucking truth, life is fucking harsh and no one can escape the damn truth.

I don't know how it begins but like a slow motion, I remember her blue eyes piercing through my soul. There is so many unspoken words between us, the silence that surrounds us became our haven. Damn. She looks like a goddess. Kahit ang mata niya lang ang naalala ko tuwing nagigising ako ay enough na 'yun para malaman kong she is more than just a pretty face. She is so much more. But she is not real, isn't she?

Nagulat ako ng bahagyang alugin ni Cass ang kamay ko. "Babe, are you okay? You look lost."

Why am I even thinking about another girl? Kasama ko ang girlfriend ko ngayon. Wait, am I cheating? No, that can't be beacuse she isn't real. She is just a dream and it meant to stay that way. Also, I only have an hour to spend with Cass might as well to spend it right.

Umupo ako ng maayos at ngumiti sakanya, "I am grand. So, you like the food?"

Hedone

I look over my bedroom balcony as a familiar creature landed with a letter in her beak. Aphrodite.

Nagmadali akong pumunta saka kinuha ang letter, "Thank you."

The creature nod and immediately fly. I open the letter eagerly.

My dear Hedone,

It is beyond my pleasure to receive a letter from you, its been forever since you wrote me a letter and I missed you my grandchild. I've heard how wonderful goddess you are to your temple and people—like your father. You made me proud. I know up until now you loath me for what I have done to Psyche—especially to you—and I hope this little help from me will be enough for you to pay me a visit atleast once, dear.

This is not just an ordinary letter, soak it in a warm water and wait for it to form like a gem. Wear it and you can go wherever you want by focusing on where you want to be.

I won't tell this to Psyche and Eros for I know that this is a secret but please be careful and if you have the time, come and visit your grandmother. I will be waiting.

Aphrodite

I close my eyes and look into the sky, thank you Aphrodite. But I guess forgiveness won't be that easy.

Agad akong bumaba para kumuha ng mainit na tubig.

"Hey,"

"Ay palakang kokak" napatalon ako sa gulat. Hinarap ko si Algos na halos hindi na makahinga kakatawa.

"Anong sabi mo?"

Inirapan ko lang siya at hanggang ngayon tumatawa pa rin siya. Sige, tawa lang sakitan ka sana ng tiyan.

"Anong ginagawa mo?"

"Hindi ba halata? Nag-iinit ng tubig."

"Para saan?"

Para saan nga ba? Isip, Hedone. "Para sa gatas."

"Sige, ako na diyan. Umupo ka na doon ako na magtitimpla." naku, paano to? Hay naku naman talaga Algos, hindi nakakatulong pagiging matulungin mo ngayon.

"Ako na, mukhang pagod ka na rin eh." ngumiti lang siya sa'kin pero umupo na rin habang nakatingin lang sa ginagawa ko.

"Bakit hindi ka pa matulog?" basag ko sa katahimikan.

"Kinausap pa ako ni Eros."

"Oh. The god of love and the god of pain. How ironic."

Ngumiti lang siya sa sinabi ko.

"Aakyat na ako, Algos. Magpahinga ka na rin." nginitian ko siya ng maglalakad na sana ako palayo sakanya ay napatigil ako sa sinabi niya.

"Mag-iingat ka, Hedone." lumingon ako sa kanya pero hindi siya nakatingin sa'kin at ang likod lang niya ang nakikita ko.

Alam niya ba? Pero kung alam niya bakit hindi niya ako pinipigilan? Siguro sinasabi niya na mag-ingat ako paakyat sa kwarto? Ang weird.

"Ah sige, ikaw din. Goodnight, Algos." hindi ko na hinintay ang sagot niya at naglakad na ako papunta ng kwarto ko.

Ibinaba ko ang baso sa kama ko saka inilagay ang sulat ni Aphrodite. Mabilis lang na naging bato na kulay asul ang sulat. Inalis ko ito sa baso at ginawang pendant ng isang kwintas.

Nagbihis ako ng maayos na kasuotan bago inayos ang higaan ko.

"Mom, dad, Algos, I am sorry pero kailangan ko ng sagot sa mga tanong ko." sa pagpikit ko at tumulo ang luha ko. Baka pagsisihan ko itong desisyon ko, baka ikapahamak ko pero mas pagsisihan ko kung hindi ko 'to gagawin. Alam kong may dahilan kung bakit pabalik-balik ako sa mundo ng tao at kung bakit pinagbabawalan ako nila mom and dad. Alam ko na hindi ako ganoong kahina kaya alam kong may kinalaman sila kung bakit bumigay ang katawan ko last time na nag-attempt akong pumunta sa mundo ng mga tao. Meron silang tinatago sa'kin at kailangan kong malaman kung ano 'yun.

Huminga ako ng malalim at nagfocus sa gusto kong puntahan. Its now or never.

Unti-unti kong nararamdaman ang paglamig ng paligid at idinilat ko ang mata ko, ang tanging nakikita ko lang ay malawak na tubig.

"Hedone?" nilingon ko ang tumawag sakin, "Anong ginagawa mo rito?"

"Poseidon,"

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The god of pain above, guys. Algos.

The picture shown above is not mine. Credits to the rightful owner.