When Destiny Decides To Play

Chapter 3

Uoiea's POV

I'm sitting on my favorite swing, alone. The sky, of course, the same as that day—dark, gloomy and dull. Nandito na naman...

Five black cars stopped not so far away from where I am. My heart starts to pick up a pace I am too familiar to ignore. I rose from my seat, preparing myself to run. Alam ko na ang susunod.

I run as fast as I can, as far as I could. But like the other blue nights, the road seems to have no end as it becomes more narrowed. My knees began trembling as two set of hands grab me by my arms.

No.

"LET ME GO!" I screamed to the top of my lungs, but there seems nothing to hear me. Nagpumiglas ako but they didn't even flinch.

We reached the black car at isang lalaking naka bonet ang buong mukha ang tumayo sa harap ko. Nagsimula ako manginig. He reached for something inside his coat and I just wish he didn't retrieve it. I stared at the thing he's holding— wide eyed. Even though I already know what will happen next I still utter some useless pleading, hoping to turn the end into something I always wanted.

But fate just won't allow it.

He raised his hands— aiming at me. His vicious eyes danced with menace.

"No..."

The cold metal touched my forehead.

"I'm begging"

He grinned— one that I will never forget.

"Please, don't..." I plead and he pulled the trigger.

"No!!"

Napabalikwas ako mula sa pagkakahiga, cold sweat trickling my forehead. I immediately scanned my surroundings.

Thank goodness, I'm in my room.

I clutch my chest, still feeling it's fast rate. I calmed myself and controlled my breathing.

I glance at the clock. '4:50, seriously?' napailing ako. Anyway, this is not even new. I pushed myself off my bed and walk towards my room's bathroom. I wash my face and looked at my reflection. Dark orbs stare back at me.

This should stop, soon.

I walked towards my vanity table, picked my pills and drunk it. I closed my eyes as overwhelming bitterness fill my mouth. How I wish I don't have to drink this.

Pumunta ako sa dressing room at kinuha ang uniform ko, inayos ko na rin lahat ng gamit na dadalhin ko dahil mahaba pa naman ang oras.

Kalahating oras din ang ginugol ko before I decided to take a bath. I did my morning rituals at umupo sa vanity chair ko.

Napatitig ulit ako sa mukha ko. I examine my face. Ang dating lutang na cheeckbones at magandang hulma ng mukha ko ay bahagyang nagkaroon ng laman dahil sa pagdagdag ng timbang ko. Nasa lahi na namin ang may malalim na mata ngunit mas lumalim pa ang sa'kin dahil sa madalas na walang tulog. Pasalamat nalang ako at hindi nabago ang makinis kong kutis.

Hindi ako pangit. Hindi rin ako nerd. I have to do this for myself. I shook my head nang maramdaman ko na parang mawawala na naman ako sa realidad.

Dr. Jean said that I should be aware of my thoughts, so that I can handle them. But how? Hindi ko nga makontrol ang sarili ko na isipin ang bagay na yun.

I sighed at bumaling na lang sa mga cosmetics na nasa harap ko. Yes, I wear cosmetics. And yes, I wear it as a disguise.

Nagsimula kong pahiran ng makapal at maitim na foundation ang balat ko tsaka itinapal ang makakapal na pekeng kilay, blemishes, pekeng ilong na gawa sa silicon, mas pinaitim ko rin ang eyebags ko at tape na idinidikit ko sa eyelids para paliitin ang bilugan kong mata, halos hindi na nga ako makakita. At syempre, dahil isang nerd ang ipino-portray ko ay nagsuot din ako ng makapal at malaking eyeglasses.