Dear Jesus,
I write this letter to You,
For I know that I have to,
How should I say this to You?
I feel apart like pieces of two.
I am bad in spoken language Lord,
That's why I choose written word,
Recently, I've been feeling so odd,
I wonder what's wrong with me God.
Actually, I was thinking of something,
Trying to figure out the real thing,
I really don't want to miss a thing,
I really need You to help me think.
At this moment, a problem appears,
Honestly I'm overwhelmed with fears,
I am so ashamed with my fellow peers,
I don't want them to see me in tears.
Plus, I couldn't even sleep at night,
For there is something isn't right,
My heart is burdened with fright,
I'm lost; I don't know how to fight.
Tell me; am I at the right track?
Or should I consider looking back?
If I quit they'll say "What the heck?"
Then, I'll be the pain at their neck.
I don't want to be problematic,
I'm scared of being so pathetic,
For it really make me feel so sick,
I just want to climb onto the peak.
I have stumbled due to this shake,
It's so hard; it's not a piece of cake,
So, tell me what action I should take,
I want to stand upright for Your sake.
There's a time when I'm in indecision,
Crazy things come in my imagination,
I'm trapped with my blur conclusion,
I'm puzzled, not knowing the solution.
They keep expecting me to do it,
I'm not so sure, can I really do it?
Because I'm not confident with it,
But still, should I really go for it?
Then, I call You to be here,
I know You are here, so near,
I know You see and You hear,
And say "I believe in you dear"
I need strength to move on,
So that I'm able to carry on,
When I feel weak on my own,
I know I have You to lean on.
I'll stay alert with the mission,
I'll prove that it's not an illusion,
I'll fight against the temptation,
All the way to my final destination.
Have I made the right decision?
I think so for I'm Your chosen,
I'll put what I've said into action,
And reach that adored ambition.
Does Dad know about this piece?
Does He know I'm being like this?
I doubt that I have made Him pissed,
Tell Him that I'm trying my best please.
