And the good die young

Fully Commited

I opened my eyes and you weren't there.
If i could change time i would put you there.
I feel deep down that our bond is broken.
Because we lack basic skills to keep our love open.
I want you fully to commit to me.
I've done so but i'm just waiting on you baby.
Even if you have, it just don't feel so.
I must be asking for to much, or not enough at all.
I want the best in life and i'm dying trying to provide.
I made plenty mistakes in life and i'm trying to survive.
I want you to stay in my life but its calling for you to leave.
In my mind, in life your gone and already i bleed.
I play tricks on myself, tricking myself that shit is ok.
But deep down i'm distraught but i'm trying to keep them away.
The world is fucked up and everyone is dying.
People are being shot, and most people are just crying.
It cant bring them back but tears heal the soul.
So i let mine falls happily and let god heal make me whole.
I miss my father every day is the only man who knew my heart.
Your trying your hardest but your falling short.
Its ok that you don't understand me, hell i don't understand myself.
But one thing i do understand is i know love and i know it well.
You shouldn't be able to live without me if what you say is true.
I want to be like hankok paired off like couple are suppose to.
I'm so sick of being trapped in a cycle i cant break.
3 generations and they all shared the same fate.
Maybe i'm better off alone, maybe god has a different plan.
Maybe i fallin off course and god is trying to grab my hand.
Maybe i missed my turn and now the snakes have a hold of me.
Or maybe jus maybe this shit was meant to be.
You can say i'm angry because of all the people i ran into in life.
You can say i don give a damn which in most cases i don't so ill be alright.
I write to let out whats traveling through my mind.
But without my grind, my achievements i'm nothing more than a chick whose going blind.
I sit in my room and think back in time.
When i was most happy and i cant even find.
That thought that i long for because it don't exist.
I wont be happy until i accomplish all that i can.
For now ill sit in this room and die slowly.
Have i given up, not truly.
I'm a fighter, and it takes a lot to get me down.
I may have fumbled, but i never fell down.
I may have called it my last but never my end.
So until than ill keep going until i win.
But wait.....
Who are you?
The one who i gave my heart to.
The guy who speaks to me.
Your one of a kind, and even that you see.
I have your heart, you gave that to me.
I captured your soul, I got that you see.
Facts are facts and you cant hide what within.
I'm the cure to your disease, it's written in the prescription.