Ocean's Views

Blossom

Broken girls Blossom into a Savage
You crush my heart now I have nothing to salvage

Chapter 12

The next day comes by and me and my mom end up having a heart to heart. I pour out everything to her letting her know all the drama that has been going on and as mothers do, she gave me great advise.

Mrs. Williams- baby, you have your whole life a head of you, if Rashad wants to go down that path then let him that's his choice the only thing a love one can do is give him warnings, which you did. You need to focus on your future and hopefully you know better to fill it with people who do not know right from wrong.

After going through all this drama, I finally see that Rashad is just not worth my time, having a long talk with my mom just made everything clear. Yeah, I still feel heartbroken about the situation but when I think about him, I see how much of a clown he is. At this point I am done with all niggas. The only thing that gives me pause is that I have not reach out to Luca. His been such a good friend to me helping me through this situation. But we cross a line the other day and after everything I went through with Rashad, I am not sure if I can just jump into another relationship or situation-ship for that matter. Some days go by and I only focus on getting ready for back to school. That how I end up at the mall with Angel and Stacy, looking to bag something cool for the first day a school. This is my senior year and I want the whole year to be memorable.

You like this-Angel

No that has way to slutty girl, your ass is all out you will be struck in CSI all day with that outfit -Stacy

It is not that bad, Ocean what you think? -Angel (holding up the shortness skirt I ever seen)

I think you know Damn well you cannot wear that to school-Ocean

Y'all right but I'm still going to get it maybe I can wear it to the party tonight- Angel

Please come Ocean it will be fun -Stacy

Yeah, it is the last party of the summer-Angel

I am just not in the mood to be around that scene right now, everyone knows me, and Rashad broke up and they going to be shady- Ocean

Yeah, but that is inevitable they still going to be shady on the first day of school-Stacy

It will be better to just face them hating hoes down at the party looking good and unbothered, I mean it is the last big party-Angel

I am not sure...I just don't think I'm have a good time-Ocean

You will I am telling you-Stacy

Yeah, we will make sure that you get out this funk, Darlene even got a bottle-Angel

We not even cool right now, she was lying to me this whole time, she the op-Ocean

Your over reacting, I get it that your mad she was lying to you, but she was trying to do what is right for her. She was put in a weird position to be struck in between her boyfriend and best friend- Stacy

Yeah and you are not dicking her down, of courses she will side with him -Angel (Angel and Stacy laughing)

But why she lied to me, she could have kept it real- Ocean

Ocean please you know you are not mad at her anymore just talk to her so we can have a great time tonight - Angel

Whatever I will talk to her but she better apologized -Ocean

Good so y'all can work things out before we go -Stacy

Shit now I must buy something great for tonight- Ocean

            So, we spend all afternoon going from every store looking for shoes and clothes and makeup. It was so much fun just spending time with my friends and joking around. I end up buying this cute set from Forever 21. I got this cut white crop top and some distressed jeans. I'm thinking should I pair it with the low heels sandals I got last week. We all got something nice for tonight. Angel got this short lather black dress and Stacy went with this nice shirt and skirt flower set. We all agree to meet at my house to get ready and pregame.

            I am home now trying to get ready, but it is hard because I keep getting distracted thinking about Darlene. Not going to lie I kind of do miss Darlene, maybe I did overreact. But she lied to me I cannot just let her think that's cool .what type of friends do that to each other! I do not want it to be awkward when they come over, so I am going to be cordial. That settle I focus on getting readying, Stacy and angel is right all the petty hoes will want to see me looking down and out. But, I have to show them I'm good without Rashad or their going to make my senior year rough. I take extra care with my makeup, making sure I am given a nice glow with a smoky purple red eyeshadow. Then I put on my outfit, happy that the jeans hugs all my curves. This outfit gives me the grown and sophisticated look I was going for. I finally made up my mind and I am going with the low heel sandals I have.  I need to show these girls I do not got time for their childish games I move on to the next level in my life.  Just then I see I got a text thinking it is the girls I run and get my purse and keys. I look down and see it's not from Stacy

Luca- that's fuck up the least you can do is just talk to me

I guess I can look grown, but I am not ready to act grown yet. I just do not feel ready to confront my feeling for Luca. I do not know what to say to him yet, so I'm wait until I get my feeling sorted out. I finally get a text from Stacy

Stacy-we outside your crib

Ocean- coming out now

Well fuck it, I look good hopefully this night can be a fun distraction
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