i want the world to see how hard i am trying and stop their pathetic attention seeking lips from parting and grosteque heart from showing and leave me alone as i sink deeper into the ocean in deperate attempts to swim up to the surface to just breathe a dozen of air molecules when i do not know how to even swim
(but oh darling do you think that they will care? their lips part for their own entertainment and they showcase their rotting hearts in honour so to scare you weak, shiver your soul, asphyxiate you till your lungs wither in pain)
