Midnight Cries

The beginning of the end

Poem 1

I go crazy when you're not here

My heart stops beating

I can hardly breath

I can feel my emotions taking over me

My body's craving your energy

I've lost desire to function; desire to live

I can feel my fire dying from within

To close to the edge to claim my sanity

The ground crumbles where I stand

And soon ill be falling deep into the words you say

It doesn't matter anyway

They can't fill the empty space where my heart used to stay.

I close my eyes and don't speak

Try to hold on to the temporary moments and memories to keep.

Id rather be dreaming

The pain is to real

Ill take another sip just not to feel

Self-destruction seems to be my skill

In a world where nothing feels real.

Feeling like a hamster trapped in a wheel;

Spinning in the same circle everyday

Pretending that everything is OK

Flash a fake smile or two

No one around me has a clue

How close you are to coming unglued

Just keep breathing until the moment is through.

Poem 2

Close my eyes in the still of the darkness

Reach out but theirs no one there that can comfort.

I can understand why no one would want me around

People need happiness, something I can't do for them right now.

My mental space is dark and scary,

like the woods in the night and I'm left there waiting.

My thoughts,

my dreams,

and reality

began to chase me to the cliff where they have encaged me.

I feel like I can't breathe as everything surrounds me,

But today as I pass everyone by

ill smile like there's nothing laying on my mind

Until the darkness falls and I'm left to fight

Poem 3

Its a feeling deep inside my chest 

My head starts beating and I start to sweat

I need to hide repeats inside my head 

Remember to breathe this is all pretend 

STOP IT BRAIN this isn't right 

My brain falls deeper into fright 

My  mind is screaming come back up 

My body seems to be stuck