Notice Me

Hey! I Like You

"I did my hair, and makeup thinking of you". I sighed over dramatically. "Why won't he notice me?" I wonder out loud, quiet and to myself. Well I guess, I should start with why I'm fretting over all of this, shouldn't I? I'm fretting because I want to be normal, like the other girls, pretty and not single. I not only want a relationship because everyone else has one, but because I want to complete myself and my unimportant life. Enough about me. This guy, he's kind of my friend you could say. He's hugged me and he's really nice to me. But I know he doesn't like me, it's not possible for a person like me to be liked anyways.
Damn it, why can't he notice me already? Hell say hi, then I'll say it back or vice versa. I just want him to know in the most subtle way that I like him. Ugh! Why is he so clueless? There's one person that I'm close too, that knows I like him. She's close to him, and she respects me enough to not tell him. I love her for that, but now she needs to say something, just one thing, then I'll be fine.
Look, I'm not nice to myself. There's honestly no need to when everyone else is faking "nice" to make you feel better. Like uh guys, I know your trying to get me to feel better, not really caring what happens, just as long as you have satisfied yourself. Wait, there was one person, my best guy friend, he complimented me, I knew he truly meant it because he never compliments me or anyone for that fact. It made feel warm inside, like I had purpose
I hate myself. I will admit it. I do not like my size, I'm not pretty, and all I am is ugly and worthless. These are things always running through my mind. I piss everyone off around me. I get that. But what I don't get is people lying to make me feel better. It does no good.
Anyways, back to this person. He's sweet, funny, and his laugh is unique. He's not like others. None of this matters anymore, nothing ever does. Life goes on.

Authors Note- this is my real life. No this is not for attention