Ive Still Got Some Pain

Just a Ghost/ Not Really Real

I swear I've loved you all

I would have called

If I weren't scared

That I was just a ghost

Living a lie and entertaining my host

To my parents and my friends

This won't be my end

I've never quite had the words to say

I wish I loved me most of all

And for that I take the fall

I've tried and I'm trying

I'm falling apart

Just to keep myself together, for the most part

Sometimes I fear I'm fringing out of existence

And I've been keeping my distance

Like I've spent my last year as a ghost

Trying to make all my promises mean the most

But I still feel I'm no longer real

Not able to feel

But the words that mean the most

Hit the hardest, I hope

Deep in my heart, I know

Love is the hardest for me to forgo