My Poems

Too Much

I'm broken and alone.

My blood is seeping through the seems.

My life is worthless; filled with nothing but pain.

Is there even a point in living anymore?

I put chemicals in my body.

They enter my bloodstream.

I hold in my screams.

I feel it ebb away the pain.

Until I'm numb.

I don't feel a thing.

But then the memories are free.

They surge through my unprotected mind.

I can't control the flow.

I feel the nightmare coming.

I try to pull away but the memories demand my attention.

I am swept in.

You hate me.

I can see it in your eyes.

You scream at me.

"YOU ARE WORTH NOTHING!"

The words slice through my body.

Is that why you raped me?

Why you beat me and broke me?

I am nothing to you.

Unworthy of being alive.

You used me.

Then shattered my heart.

Just like the glass you shattered over my head.

Am I really so unlovable?

Will I never be enough?

You prove the answer is no.

I am fit for nothing.

Nothing but writhing in my well deserved pain.

I want to die.

Would you even change expression?

Will that disgust ever leave your face.

If I killed myself would you feel any remorse?

Of course you wouldn't.

You would dance on my grave.

Because you hate me.

I come back from the memory gasping.

Oh why!!

This isn't fair!

If suicide is a oneway ticket to Hell I don't care.

I'll gladly take it and be grateful.

Anything is better than this.

The constant pain and constant suffering.

Your abuse is too much for me.

I won't last much longer anyways.

So I choose to die on my own terms.

It's the last thing I can give myself.

I hope you are happy.

You're making an innocent child take her own life.

But you're heartless so it won't affect you.

Well that's it then.

I have nothing left.

Goodbye.