The Teacher's Affair

The Teacher's Affair, Chapter Fourteen

Chapter Fourteen: Impasse

One day...

Two days...

Three days...

Five days...

Nine days...

Sixteen days...

Time passes, sun comes up, moon follows after; this is the only thing I've noticed while looking out my window for some time now.

There is no motivation for anything, I haven't been to school in forever.

With my parents gone and the disappearance of my friends there is no one to force motivation into me to go, so why should I?

I don't want to... NO I cannot see him!

It would destroy the pieces I have left of me to gaze upon that handsome face and know just how well he played me.

Or even worse... to see a smug smirk on his face at his accomplishment.

Tears form in my eyes as I see Erik... Mr. Ross... him do just that.

What am I going to do?

Part of me just wants to not care that he's married..

He came to me in the first place, so obviously something is less than pleasing in his relationship.

Couldn't I just continue what we....

No!

Cordelia's expression when she looked me up and down enters my mind.

So lost...hurt... so very very hurt.

I could not do that to her.

Even if I love the man!

Why do I love a cheater?

A monster?

An absolute dick!

No not a dick... he was so lovely.

Kayla, no lovely man would cheat on his wife with you!

My contradictory thoughts buzz around in my head over and over again.

They never seem to stop anymore.

Tears fall down my face into my melting ice cream.

I sob a little as I pick up a spoon full and plunge it into my mouth.

* Ding dong. Ding dong. Ding dong.

My head jerks up at the sound of the bell.

Who would be coming here?

I walk slowly to the door and open it wide.

There stood a gorgeous woman with shoulder length blond curls.

"Who are you," I ask?

"My name is Sydney Ross."

Tears gather in my eyes as I mumble "Oh.."

She sighs as she takes my hand and leads me into my house.

She sits me down on my couch beside of her.

"You look terrible," She states.

I look at her a little taken aback... so fore ward!

" Look I know what my brother did was wrong, probably took your virginity, and broke your heart in the process, but you need to forget it ever happened."

" Forget?! How could I possibly forget someone like your brother? Cheating and hurt aside, I do love him. That's not so easily forgotten!"

"Well you have to! Can't you see what you are doing is going to ruin you?! You are in your senior year of high school darling! Your grades are slipping due to your absences, don't you have scholarships lined up? What do you want to do after high school? Whatever that may be, you need to strive towards that! Forget about this ache in your heart and work towards your future. It will get better one day I promise, but right now you need to keep on pushing fore ward instead of lying around like your life is already over!"

Her words make an impact on me.

She is right, what am I doing?

I can't let my grades slip, my scholarships let go!

But... there is no way I can see HIM every day.

Be in the same room as him...

"I have a class with your brother... there's no way I can...No I just can't!"

"Actually... Erik already handled that," Sydney sais.

I flinch at the sound of his name but accept the piece of paper she is holding out.

I look down at it, it's a schedule change issued by Erik, I'm moved to Mrs. Toney's English class.

I should be relieved, maybe even happy about this, but somehow it just makes the situation worse.

I want to see him, but I know I can't.

It breaks my heart to know that I won't be in his English class subtly flirting with him.

Flirting with a married man Kayla!

A married man that won't even talk to you himself about our situation and the class change!

I'm so angry!

Confused!

Absolutely heartbroken!

At that moment I look up in Sydney's eyes and know that I have someone to count on.

A back bone to help push me through.

She smiles at me and gives me a much needed hug.