Here I am AGAIN. Sinking the shit inside of my head.
The responsibilities that i have to hold for family.
The pain of love inside my heart.
The feeling of never be best enough of myself.
It's all start with LOVE.
A person would do anything for love.
Being hurt for love.
Take all the pain for love.
And hide the scar he get from love
And tell me, what is your own version for the meaning of love?
When i know, i already try my best.
When i have give up for a several times, but never stop.
What am i thinking?
When i already know that i will get hurt from this thing.
Why didn't i just stop, before it's too late.
Is love supposed to be this hard?
Is it mean that i have to kill myself for them?
Or
Can i just survive the pain.
If this is the sacrifice that i have to make for the sake of love.
And if everyone in the world do the same thing for it.
Why i don't just do it.
Someone wise said; Happiness ain't the thing you get at the end of the result. It's in a process when you strive for it.
Well the story that i am here tonight is over.
Let's just forget it.
Eventho i can't.
I knowww
Everyday is a new day
Lets just keep moving forward.
I have a few years to live.
Or maybe a few days or minutes or seconds.
But who cares?
Don't think about it.
It's just give me anxiety.
And make me scared to live.
If someone don't want me in their life, let them be.
Don't beg them to stay.
