Let me tell my story, of a girl who didnt know,
That the world was so cruel, when people let their colours show
Let me tell you the whole story, of what she thought and felt.
Maybe hearing this will make bored, or itll your heart melt.
this girl, she was in love, with a boy who didn’t care.
Who use to flirt with other girls, until she couldn’t even bare
The jealousy that built up, inside started boil
Because all she ever wanted from him, was the truth and to be loyal.
But shed never let you know, how shes really feeling.
But she was struggling to hold on, she was slowly unreeling.
She was trying to hang on, but her fingers were quickly slipping.
It might’ve just been the drugs, or the shit that shed been sipping.
She doesn’t know what to do, shes so fucked up right now.
Shes trying to pull herself together, but she doesn’t know how.
She hasn’t slept in days, shes scared shell see his face
So shes been thinking about all the ways, she can end the pain and leave this place.
Thinking about him hurts, like something clawing at her skin.
But she cant let people see her like this, the fucked up head space shes in.
So she pops another pill, maybe two or even three
To numb out the pain, and set her mind free
But three wont be enough, so shell take a few more
Shell take another two maybe three or even four
Not sure how many shes downed, shes pretty much lost count
Might just take a few more though, just to even herself out
While she waits for the kick, she reaches for the blade
And thinks of all the mistakes, that shes ever made.
Shes done five or six, now shes up to seven.
But she knows it wont be enough, to take her straight to heaven
So she does a few more cuts, and pops a few more pills
Watches the blood seep scarlet red, watching as it spills.
She starts to get dizzy, tired and weak.
She wants to call her family and say I love you, but she cant even speak.
She starts feel herself lose consciousness, but then starts to get scared.
She realises this isn’t what she wanted, she wishes she hadn’t dared.
She thinks of her mother and father lying at her grave.
Crying about the daughter, they didn’t even know they had to save.
She starts to hate herself, what has she done.
She cant leave her family, her loving dad and mum.
The image of her family, slowly fades to black.
And shes sitting in the dark, praying she could take her actions back.
She wakes up in a panic, her mother heard her scream.
She realised shed been asleep, and it was all a feral dream.
But the dream could’ve easily been real, she thought about it before
She looks at her mother, whose kneeled next to her on the floor.
Not wanting to let go, she holds her mum tight.
“shh, baby girl, it was all a bad dream, youre alright.”
This girl was me, that dream was real.
The dream was a reflection of how I really feel.
but im getting better now, time has past.
Im feeling better then ive ever felt, since ive seen you last.
But I need to get this out, I need to clear my chest.
Need to let you know, how I felt and the rest.
You told me you loved me, and said I was your world.
You said we’d grow old together, even have a little girl.
We use to be so close, we use to be tight.
It was me and you against the world, and babe I was ready for the fight.
But you backed out, realised I wasn’t worth the trouble.
You blew it up in my face, and now im left sitting in the rubble.
You kicked me to the to the curb, for your girl on the other side.
Left me in the open, with nowhere to hide.
You had a new girl, before I was even gone
I was so confused, about how it didn’t even take you that long.
I thought I had lost you, you were all I had.
But now that I think about, im sure as hell fuckin glad.
Someone said to me, “not everything you lose is a loss-
Keep your head up, pour your self a drink and put on some lipgloss.
Coz babe he was far gone, before he said it was over.
so tonight lets get fucked up, have a drink no longer be sober.”
You Didn’t even give me the courtesy, of a decent break up,
I let you hurt me, wreck me and fuck up my make up.
Its been two months, and im having having fuckin a blast.
Coz me and you were over, im stoked it didn’t last.
I cant stand to see your face, you’re such a dodgey cunt.
Makes me sick to think, that it was all just a big front.
I cared for you more than myself, I wish you could have seen.
But you couldn’t see the benefits of staying, and now Ive come and been.
