I had a long author's note going on a thank you spiel written and posted from a year ago when I finished this but I came back and deleted it because I need you guys to understand that this was a very unhealthy relationship, and I wrote it with that intention. Do not romanticize it, please. And if you ever, ever find yourself feeling like the main character does in these bits and pieces of my story, please distance yourself from the relationship, and get out if possible. I'll come back and update this again with links and numbers to call so that you can talk to people and get help because I'm on mobile right now.
What my main character and Autumn had was very bad for both of them, and the ending was something that could have been avoided. Don't see it as some epic love story, because it's not. It's bitter and angry and full of pain and I don't want any of you to have to go through that. This story was (albeit unintentionally at the time) based off of my experiences with a few different people in my life. If I managed to be so hurt because of these small experiences, I would loathe for even my worst enemy to go through something similar, or, god forbid, worse.
If you ever need to talk to anyone, me or other people are here for you. I love you guys. Stay safe.
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Update 1/9/2016: Here are links to help anyone who needs them. I'm putting whichever might help people.
US:
National Domestic Abuse Hotline: 1-800-799-7233
Open 24/7
Suicide Hotline: 1-800-784-2433
Open 24/7
Crisis Call Center: 1-800-273-8255 or text ANSWER to 839863
Open 24/7
Depression and Bipolar Support: 1-800-273-TALK (8255)
Open 24/7
loveisrespect, National Teen Dating Abuse Helpline: 1-866-331-9474
Open 24/7
Rape, Abuse, and Incest National Network: 1-800-656-HOPE (4673)
Open 24/7
UK:
Childline abuse helpline: 0800 1111
Open 24/7
Rape Crisis (a helpline for survivors of sexual assault/abuse): 0808 802 9999
Open 24/7
Refuge (for women and children survivors of domestic violence): 0808 2000 247
Open 24/7
Broken Rainbow (to support LGBT+ survivors of domestic abuse): 0300 999 5428
Opening Times: Monday & Thursday 10am – 8pm, Tuesday & Wednesday 10am – 5pm
The Men's Advice Line (a helpline for male survivors of domestic abuse): 0808 801 0327 (free from landlines and most mobiles)
Opening times: Monday - Friday 9am - 5pm
Respect (a phoneline that runs support services and programmes for men and women who inflict violence in relationships): 0808 802 4040
Opening Times: Monday – Friday 9am - 5pm
Anxiety UK (helps relieve people who suffer through anxiety disorders by providing support, information, etc): 0844 477 5774
Opening times: Monday-Friday, 9:30am-5:30am
No Panic (helps those suffering with panic attacks, phobias, OCD, etc): 0808 808 0545
Opening time: Every day, 10:00am-10:00pm
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Poetry» she was the one thing that i loved as much as i despised. potential trigger warnings for a toxic relationship and alluded suicide
