Beauty Within A Beast

C h a p t e r 9

"Why can't I go over there again?", I ask Ja as I exit the gym

I haven't seen Kyson in two weeks. The first week was spent with me studying and taking midterms, and the second week was spent with Ja telling me not to go over there. I was done with that though. What was the problem?

"He is going through some things. It's not my secret to tell, but I don't think it's safe for you to be around him right now.Promise you won't go", he says as I frown and nod crossing my fingers behind my back

"Okay", I lie waving bye and walking straight out of the school

I'm going to check on him. It can't be that bad.

I drive to his house in my mother's run down car before pulling in the driveway.

I get out and straighten my shirt before walking up and knocking on the door.

"Kyson. I know your ass is in here", I call out as he answers

"Leave Ashlyn", he says as I frown

"Can you please open the door baby?", I ask as it slowly clicks and I push it open

"What the fuck happened", I say sweeping my eyes from the destroyed house to him. There was glass everywhere and dents in the living room wall while he had yellow and purple bruises on his hands with a big ass black bruise on his head.

"Ion wanna talk about it.", He says as I sigh

"You sure you okay Kyson?", I ask when he gets up and walks to his room

"If you gone question me you can get the fuck out", he says as I breathe in and out to contain my mouth

"Maybe I'm just worried about your dumbass", I say rolling my eyes

"I DONT FUCKING NEED YOU TO BE WORRIED ABOUT ME. WORRY ABOUT YOUR OWN FUCKED UP HEAD", he says as I just stare at him

I turn away from him with angry eyes and begin to walk out when he pulls me back to him

"Look man. You just don't need to be around me right now. I need you to take Charlie with you, and give me some space. I don't wanna hurt him or you", he says as I shake my head

"I'm just worried about you. I wanna be here for you", I pout hugging him close to me with teary eyes

I just wanted to be here with him through all the pain.

"You can't be worried about me", He says letting me go

"Talk to me Kyson? Ja said it has something to do with your Coach?", I question as his eyes blaze over

"Get the fuck out Ashlyn. I can't do this right now", He says pointing to the door

"Kyson please", I beg making no move to let him go

"GET THE FUCK OUT ASHLYN", he screams holding his head and pushing me off of him.

I look around one last time and nod, but Something caught my eye and I quickly make an excuse to go get it.

Is that what this was about?

"Can I just use your bathroom first?", I ask wiping at my wet eyes

Him not answering was a yes in my books so I discretely grab the pill bottle off the floor before searching the prescription.

Why couldn't he just fucking tell me?

I walk out and try to go to him but he moves away.

"Why didn't you just tell me your bipolar? I could have done something...", I trail off with a sad frown

"Actually it's a Schizoaffective disorder but bipolar is close enough. You should have know I mean I don't exactly look like someone who is stable. I'm a monster", he says laughing hysterically with tears running down his face and honestly scaring the fuck out of me

"I wanna help you", I say as he shakes his head

"You helping by getting the fuck out my house", he says Shrugging

"When you get better just let me know", I say as he glares at me his tears drying up instantly

"AINT NO FUCKING GETTING BETTER! I'm like this for life, and that's exactly why it's not gone be no me and you. You might be a crazy bitch, but I'm mentally unstable . I can never settle down with nobody without fucking it up. Just leave Ashlyn. Please", He says turning away from me as I sigh

I pick his kitten up into my arms with a single tear and walk away from him without looking back.

More Tears begin to fall again, but I simply just keep walking until I'm out of his house.