Regrets and
Past mistakes
Fill the void
Of innocence
We once had,
For there is no life
Without struggle,
And this is mine;
That I am reckless.
I throw myself into
These things without
Thinking, only
Plunging to a
Sudden death
Without second
Glance on the things
I've left behind,
The treason and the
Lies that I've hidden
Away underneath
The shiny floorboards
I tear them up only
To renew the torture,
For there is no life
Without pain,
And this is mine;
That I hurt the
People that I love
Because I am bad
At making decisions.
I mean well, I always
Have. But I was meant
To be alone because
Pushing everyone away
Becomes exhausting
And trying to pretend
Becomes disappointing
And trying to keep up
Becomes hopeless
And lying becomes
Dangerous because
Some of us can't handle
The responsibility
Some of us weren't
Made to be stable
And some of us
Will never learn,
But darling please
Just understand this;
It was never you,
It was an incapability
To feel Like a normal
Human being, for
I can't and I'm
Sorry, and I never
Wanted you to ever
Feel this way, though
One day you will find
Someone who can
Change the way you
See yourself, I am just
Sorry that it wasn't me
