Letter to Destiny

Chapter Seven

CHAPTER SEVEN

I am so blessed to have this one of a kind man who’s not just loving me but also sacrificing so many things for me. I don’t deserve him... I don’t.

“You don’t deserve me. I’m sorry.”

“Deserve?”

“Oo you don’t deserve me.  Maghiwalay na tayo.”

“Ano nanaman yan naisip mo ha?  Pwede ba wala akong pakialam sa deserve deserve na yan. Mahal kita.”

“Pero you deserve more.  Someone better than me.”

“Makitid ba talaga utak mo? Ikaw ang gusto ko.  Wala akong pakialam sa iba. Ikaw lang ang gusto ko.”

“Pag-isipan mo muna kung ako ba talaga.  I’ll give you the whole night to think about it.”

“Akala mo ganun kadali yun? Hindi kayang pag-isipan yun overnight.”

“Just please understand, hindi ako karapat-dapat sayo. Madame akong issues.  Complicated ang status ko.  Ayokong isama ka sa kasalanang meron ako. Ayokong idamay ka sa gulo ng buhay ko.  Bata ka pa, marame ka pang makikilala. Please, itigil na natin to?”

“Please? Alam mo ba yun hinihingi mo sakin? HInihingi mong mawala ka sa buhay ko.  Ayoko, hindi ko kaya. Hindi ako papayag.”

“Pero hindi talaga eh. Hindi tama. Sorry. Huwag na lang ako.”

“Sorry din, pero hindi ko kayang pagbigyan ang gusto mo dahil hinding-hindi mo kayang turuan ang puso kong wag kang mahalin.”

Our relationship went to a lot of trials.  We fought and I started it all. Tears were shed all because of me.  I am the one who’s in complicated situation.  I am the one who have a lot of issues deal. I have unfinished business. I have all the problems.  I felt so guilty that I’m dragging him to situation that he doesn’t deserve.

He knows everything yet he chose to love me more. Even how many times I tried to push him away, how many times I break up with him but he did not let go of me.  Instead he held my hand more closed to his heart.

I felt the sincerity, the truthfulness of his love.