September 3rd
11:34pm
To: hipsdontlie28@gmail.com
From: redlion1023@gmail.com
Subject: The Realization?
You know how some old, straight married couples say, "I looked at him, and I just knew. It was love at first sight." I call complete and utter bullshit on that. It's the total opposite for gay people. First, it's just hesitant, confused thoughts. Then it's nervous overthinking and denial. And then, if the guy has guts, he admits his sexuality to himself and tells it to the world. Finally, after all of that, he might find someone to date. Though, I highly doubt some guys even get past the second stage.
I'm pretty sure I'm in the middle of the third stage, where I've admitted it to myself but still haven't had enough balls to tell anyone yet. Anyone but you, that is. But I've got to say, it gets pretty damn difficult to be a closeted gay when there's a locker room full of shirtless guys during PE. It should be illegal for them to flaunt their chest like that so casually. I hope maybe one day I'll actually find enough courage to come out, but until then, I'll have to manage with just looking.
Groaning internally,
Red.
