Nightmare
Onto the floor you see me laying
After the nights of no- sleep
Treacherous mornings and awakening nights.
Don’t tell me to close my eyes because I can’t stand what I’m seeing
Blackness.
Darkness.
All the pain, inside me
I feel
The agony
It’s increasing
Someone help me
What am I to do
When there’s no one to go to
No matter how many times I state it
The situation doesn’t degrade
What am I to do
When I feel myself suffocating
From my own desire
From my want to live
Onward in life you watch me go
Leaving the marks of where I stepped
The nightmares continue
The sleep becomes less
But onward I go
“I have to progress.”
Staying here won’t do me any good
I say
Holding onto memories that weaken me everyday
I have to step forward
And continue this march
Onward I say I’m going
Inside I feel like I am leaving…
The Black Night
Starry Sky
I feel myself being consumed
By this
I go on
But I disregard the voices
What am I to do
When I hear the words of conscious
Not always making sense
But comprehension sometimes isn’t worth it
What am I to do
I continue to move of forward
The nightmares don’t descend
They continue on..
Suddenly I feel myself starting to pry open my eyes
I have to wake up from this nightmare
Where am I?
I’ve walked away so far and distant
No one is here to hear me out
Where am I?
What has happened?
Then I hear that agonizing scream….
It isn’t over…
Wake up
I try to get up
All I’m doing is watching
Another nightmare
Oh here we are again
How can I prevent such horror
Please make it stop again…
I lay my head down
It’s not over but I can’t take it
Screaming not going to help
I’ve learned that much at least
Sighing, I turn to the mirror
I see the bags under my eyes
Sleepless nights and days turn into one
Am I still dreaming?
If I were a dream.
I wouldn’t be a nightmare
I’d be the happiest memory in someone’s mind
When that day comes
When that person finally want to get rid of me
I would then become…
A nightmare.
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Atonement?
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