Loneliness
Runs so deep
I keep it hidden away
Disguised behind a smile
No-one sees
No-one hears
It wouldn't matter if they did
There is no-one I can lean on
All would turn away
Nearly everyone in my life
Past or present
Family, friend or foe
Each has played a part
In breaking me
Tearing out my heart
Blackening my soul
Such a precious few
On whom I can rely
But those few
Those few that care
That honestly love me
Love me for who I am
Not who I'm forced to be
Do they deserve the weight
Of my problems
Of my stress, my depression
No
A thousand times no
They certainly do not
Those that treat me so kindly
They have their own lives
Their own families
Their own stresses
Why would I
How could I
Add my misery
To their own
My emotions are a tidal wave
They wash over me
Flow all around me
Until I fear I'll drown
What have I done
Have I lived life so wrong
Maybe I deserve it all
These things that cause such pain
They each take turns
Beating me down
With their words
Berating me
Do they want me gone
Out of their lives
So many years they've spent
Trying to mold me
Change me
Reprogram me
Into who they thought I should be
But that person isn't good enough either
Deep down I know better
Yet some days it feels as if I have no-one
No-one to turn to
When the pain gets so bad
Sometimes I am so lonely
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Senseless Ranting
PoetryJust one of my poems written at a very dark time in my life. I chose to post the ones I have posted because, good or bad, happy or sad, light or dark, they say something about me, about who I am. All of my words are original, although I can not clai...
