This one is for the girls out there
Who's life is perfect, plain and fair
Who have their mothers by their sides
And will always have them throughout their lives.
I envy you and your mothers too
Im deeply jealous through and through
For you see while you two gossip and talk
Im left to sit and watch you walk
My mother left me two years ago
But not everyone around me knows
But thats ok, because you see
I have my dad, Tj and Nicky.
They love more than my mother will
So i forget about her until
She comes to pick my brothers up.
And she strolls on in not a care in the world
Completely forgetting about her only girl
Forgetting all my pain and her lies
How she made me cry and cry
Forgetting how she cheated and stole
How she made my heart harden like coal
But you'd never know how my heart fainted
because after awile i learned how to fake it
To paint on my face every day
to pretend to be happy in everything i say.
So our relationship between mother and daughter
is equivallent to over heated butter
all watery, disgusting , and bitterly yellow
When people talk about their moms i try to be mellow
To forget all the insults and pain
To make her hurtful words and actions go away
But sadly everytime i try
I end up starting to cry
I lock myself in my tiny bathroom
and look at the hole in the door she punched through
I dont like crying near others and looking like a mess
I cant show one sigh of weakness
Being strong is all i have
because nobody else can understand
So whenever you talk to me or see me skip by,
i hope you can see through my painted face and web of lies.
