Fighting the Battle Inside

Left in the world of the unknown.

Wondering if life would be best just fought on your own.

For alone at times is how you feel.

Just want a happiness that is real.

Not of the fake and the phony.

Feeling like the lost and the lonely.

So many mistakes you had at one time made.

Definitely had many prices to be paid.

You blamed yourself for it all

causing you to lose yourself and internally fall.

When all around you are constanly told forgive yourself, it is not your fault.

Yet, still you won't believe and lock yourself in a mental vault. 

Far from yourself...stubborn and very defensive.

Taking things far too offensive.

Hurt and broken, a mess inside.

Your true pain you try like hell to hide.

Rambling to no end about nothing that truely matters till you are just a bore.

You feel that all everyone really is doing is just nothing but ignore.

Feeling so drained all the time every single day.

Never really knowing what is the best thing to do or say.

Thinking your best option is to try to appease all you meet.

When in reality all you end up with is the complete opposite...pain...defeat.

Wishing and praying for an answer to all that consumes your mind.

Want to let it all out, drop the past behind. 

Back in forth your mind goes.

The solution..who knows...

For you fight that dreadful battle inside.

So much consuming you, so much you hide.