Its you who made me this way. Its you who made me hopeless. Its you who made me believe that love is only for movies and romance novels. You broke me and i dont think time has enough power to mend it. I swear i was real with you i swear i showed you my scars and healed them sitting beside you listening to your words but somehow the scars came back, began to hurt back, a liitle bit too much. I was the one to spread positivity. You told me i was sunshine and somehow you left darkness within me. You made me lose trust in every fucking word in every fucking person. I wont ever be able to love someone as much as i loved you. I will always be afraid of people seeing my real side, falling in love with it and then leaving, taking parts of me with them, leaving emptiness in the area of my reality. And now i have to fill those spaces with this disgusting person i've become. And you know i dont blame people for my loss but now i cant do it anymore, i told you i am strong but i still need you i dont want you but i need you and i cant breathe and i cant live and i am so broken
