The Loved and The Lost Poems

Purely Unafraid

There I was again

In the damned room

No, I’m mistaken

It was a different room

With 1/2 original people

Of course there was fear in my heart

Soul, and mind

But I do not dare let it get to my eyes

That would show that I am fearful

But no, they can’t know that

I knew the drill

I knew how this would end, once again

For I had already thought up

A perfect plan to escape

They kept me waiting,

Tisk tisk, not a smart move on their behalf

I had time, to think up something…

About time, they let me into the room 

Don’t look at me with those, kind eyes

You are not kind to me,you do not fool me

Instead I pulled off a happy tone

To throw them off

I laughed about something I imagined

You never would have thought

Me, I, myself could pull anything off

But I have been 

just pulling everyone else’s leg

To think, I don’t know how to do anything

My fingernails

Defiantly left marks in their

Uncomfortable chairs

The room made me sick

It was small, and seemed blue

Because it was dark

I talked calm and slow

I was very confident and sassy 

With every answer 

I did not seem afraid

I let the conversation drift 

It was no longer about me

They were talking politics

And police officers

I pretended to be interested

I nodded on, putting little effort in 

They were surprised by my calmness

I slouched and smacked my gum

The man brought up

Law enforcement, once again

I made a joke, saying I have nothing

To be arrested for

But he said,

That he sees me grow up to be in,

Law enforcement 

I was curious, why?

He said I showed honesty

But mostly because I never showed fear

I remember smirking to myself

After that, I wasn’t scared anymore

I had nothing to be afraid of……

At that one moment

I chuckled and made jokes

About how mad I was the first time

Little did they know, I was fuming 

Every second was gas on the fire

I told stories about sports

And funny parent moments

They were amused

They weren’t even a bit doubtful

Of my words

And they shouldn’t be

I wasn’t lying

They never asked if I was scared

So I never told them I was

She giggled happily

Commented on how cheerful I am

Oh, did I make it look like I had it together 

Some parts I did

But she never asked which parts

So I never did lie

She said that I should stop on by

Just because she needs a laugh per day

She said that I was social and fun

That I never had a boring statement

Of course I agreed

I said that I could come on by

And talk about things that don’t matter

But once I left that room

I didn’t turn back,

Because I never want to go in that

God forsaken place again