"Words don’t always form
In the right ways
Well not for me
For I write the words of my soul
I do not dare speak
The words will only simmer down
To create letters that do not explain
The real purpose for my words
I want to explain the world to you
Begin to end
What hurts
What angers thy self
Why I have chosen to smile
I want to be able to talk
But not just with words
With feeling and emotion
For it may distract another
But concern you
Words don’t form
In my mouth
Like smiles form upon it
Or frowns
I hesitate before every word
Worried I might
Miss some important feature
Frustrate someone who is of importance
I also avoid talking
Afraid I may say too much
That might confuse you
Or something beyond comprehension
That only I
can develop in my brain
I stand there
Jaw clenched
Waiting for words to fall out
“Never mind.”
Is what gently crawls across my tongue
What I meant to say
Was much more than a simple poem
It would be a story
Filled with love, kindness, but also
The breaking of a heart
I write thy words on paper
So I may examine things beforehand
So I may erase
Things that I have decided against
Just know,
that I have much news to tell you
Good news, full of wonder and love
Bad news, full of despair and tears
Just know,
That when I am deep in thought
I am trying to figure out
Thy correct words for thee
So you may feast upon
Great ideas
And my hearts desire
Just know,
I regret everything
I couldn’t say
Hoping maybe next time,
Next time
Things can arrange better
I wish that thou could understand
It is not purposeful
My pauses
And changes of topic
But only
Safety to you
That I thought
you needed
But it was really only me
Who needed safety
I get scared of you knowing too much
Will you be afraid again?
Will you change then?
What will you think of me?
I thought I was finally engaging
In real conversations
But then I failed again
Mumbling and murmuring
Because if I was really getting somewhere
Then why am I writing on paper,
And not talking to you?
Because everything i write,
But do not dare speak
Are nothing more
Than empty words on paper.”
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The Loved and The Lost Poems
PoetryHere lies A collection of my poems But maybe i shouldnt say, "lies" Because "lies" sounds like death But remember words will never die. Enjoy... :)