My Only Sunshine (A Short Pewdiecry Fanfic)

~~CRY/RYANS POV~~

I remember the first day we met in person.  We always played co-op games together, and we both enjoyed it. We soon became friends and we decided we wanted to meet in person. Let me tell you, it was the best descision I made in my life.

I had told him to take a taxi to my house since my car had broken down and still needed fixing. When he stepped out of the car, I was stunned by his beauty. The daylight caught his hair and made it glow golden. The sunshine was trapped in his eyes and it illuminated his skin. He looked like he was his own ray of sunshine...

My only sunshine...

It's now about two years since we met that fateful day. About a year and seven months we have been together, to be exact. I loved Pewdie, my Felix, my happiness. He always meant the world to me. I don't know how I would live... How would I live if I ever lost my only sunshine?

To answer that question, I wouldn't. I wouldn't be able to live. I wouldn't let myself live. I can't live without my Felix.

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We were just walking home from the little café down the road from my house. I had gotten him his favorite pastry and watched as he happily looked at me. He loves me too. He needs me too. I unlocked the door and ushered him forward into the house... our house... our happy little home.

I can't ask for anything better.

I turned back to shut and lock the door and I heard footsteps going up the stairs. Didn't Pewds just head up there?

The next things I heard would always be branded into my mind for as long as I dare live.

I heard him scream. I heard my love scream out in pain, yell my name in a way that sent frost creeping over my bones. I heard the glass shatter and tinkle around as one of the windows of my house was broken. Then I heard a thump.

I ran up the stairs, taking them three at a time. Now I was grateful of my long legs and skinny build.

"Felix!? Pewdie!!? Where are you?!" I shouted. I waited.

I heard a cough and immediately darting towards the source of the sound. To the left, my head turned. But every single part of my being was frozen in place as I tried to process the sight in front of me.

He was laying on our bedroom floor, against the wall. There was something red on the wall, something red pooling around him. I knew what it was, but I doubted this was real. It can't be. This is a bad dream. Wake up, Cry, wake up... wake up...

"C-cry..." I heard the softest whisper snap me back from the continuing mantra in my head. I looked down at the man I loved, and began sobbing, my legs tripping and stumbling forward to crouch next to him.

"Pewdie, you can't talk. I need to call the ambulance! I need to call the police! You need help!" I began shouting frantically, looking from side to side for something... anything that could help.

But I knew nothing could help at this point.

"Ryan," Felix said as he held my face in his bloodied hands. I didn't care. I just looked into his bright blue eyes, shadowed by pain.

"Felix... Please, hold on. You can't leave! You can't leave me... please..." I sobbed uncontrollably, leaning into his hands for comfort.

"I have to. I can't pull through from this. I'm suffering, Ry. You need to let me go..."

Let me go... let me go... let me go

The words echoed and bounced around in my head, refusing to sink in. I know he's suffering. I need to make this as painless as possible for him.

"Hey, Pewds? Remember that one time you got so shitfaced drunk you were puking buckets and holding your stomach? I said I would make you feel better... Remember me holding you and singing so you could go to sleep and," my voice caught here, "stop s-suffering?"

He laughed lightly, his face brightening up at the memory of himself in my loving arms as I sung, lulling him to sleep. He looked so peaceful that night. He looked completely serene as I looked down to him, still in my embrace.

He needs to be at peace.

"You are my sunshine, My only sunshine,

You make me happy when skies are grey.

You never know, dear, how much I love you..."

He began to cry with me as I finished the verse and started over. I told him to be happy... just listen to my voice and-- and sleep.

"Please don't take my sunshine away."

He was looking at me now, the pain slightly smoothed from his face. His look was full of love, memories, good times, bad times, all the time we shared. It was all trapped in the crystal blue eyes of my friend... my love. He smiled. He knew it was almost time.

You are my sunshine

"Felix... I love you. I have always loved you. I will always love you...

My only sunshine

I don't know how i'm going to live without you." He reached forward, softly pulling my head to his. I kissed him. I poured every last ounce of myself into the kiss-- all of my love, all of my pain, all of me. He pulled away and I looked at him with a sad smile.

You make me happy

A soft breeze drifted through the broken window, a cloud covered the sun and cast the room in a slight shadow. His hair fluttered slightly in the wind. Even now... he looks beautiful

"Ryan, you've been the best thing that has ever happened to me. I love you... I love you so much." He spoke as a tear rolled down his cheek.

When skies are grey

I held him and he held onto me with as much strength as he could muster. We were both breathing in the scents of each other. I was trying to control my sobs. I didn't want to pain him more.

But this is it. He was leaving. He won't be coming back. My Pewdie, my Felix... my happiness. This time he won't be coming back...

You never know, dear, how much I love you

He breathed in and I laid him down, scooting to lay next to him. I continued to hold him, looking into his eyes, at his beautiful face. I took him all in. I love you I love you I love you. Felix I love you.

Let me go... let me go... let me go... I knew what I had to do.

"Sleep well," I whispered. I kissed him on the forehead and a sob caught in my throat. I'm letting you go, now--- But I'll never let you go... He sighed out and closed his eyes

They didn't open. They never opened again

Please don't take my sunshine away.

(A/N: I got the "You Are my Sunshine" idea from another fic I read a while ago. I still can't find it and its always aggravating. So I guess I made my own version of it in a way... All credit goes to the original "sunshine" idea writer who I don't even know, sadly)