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When I'm Older (Song)

When I’m Older

All I wanted was to be able to be able to go with my brother and cousins

And not have them find me annoying

I didn’t know that years later when I was older,

When I was older and everything was greater,

They’d still find me annoying

All I wanted to do was to be allowed to watch that movie

And I watched that movie alone in my room,

The dark settled on everything but my laptop screen,

While I watching it, thinking,

‘Is this what love means?’

All I wanted to do was be able to go anywhere

And I discovered no one could fly

Especially on an empty wallet

I was able to go to so many places when I was young

Age only took that away from me

All I wanted was to understand my parents’ conversations,

And now I do,

And I hate that I do

Mom, Dad, what happened to you?

And will it happen to me?

Maybe older is breaking underneath the pressure

I did expect a lot of it

But it really is breaking into pieces

And those pieces scream so loud

They scream about younger and older than older

They scream about screaming

Screaming’s so different when you’re older

You’re not screaming about how excited you are

You’re screaming about how you’re trying your hardest

And how math’s not your best subject

And how you’re sorry you forgot to clean your room

And how his intentions seemed so true

And how it’s so hard to find a job these days

And how you wish you were young again