Poems From Within Me

D.O.T (Dass oder tot)

And i still see you,

Through my doubt,

I cut myself,

I'm bleeding out,

Watch the world,

As i slowly drown,

If heavens in hell,

I'm going down,

I'll cast you off discourtesly,

Cause i'm not the man that you used to be,

I'm stuck in these recourring dreams,

Where you're nothing but violence to me,

And my mother walks over to me,

on my bedside,

My father's on the phone,

as subtly he cries,

Tells me i'm scared,

That i shouldn't be living,

After all this heartache and pain,

I've been giving,

See's my hurting body,

And tell's me what he knows,

Which is pretty close to nothing,

Cause he doesn't see all my loads,

There heavy on my back,

And there starting to crack,

so i'm falling to the ground,

like a weak and old shack,

Tells me "You're so selfish,

Are you listening to me,

You hurt yourself,

To hurt others,

It's distorted deceit, 

Your mental in the brain,

and you're going insane,

Cause of one man; yourself,

who puts us all to shame.

And now your stepmum hates you,

But after all what could i do,

You ruined me day,

I hate to admit it,

But it's true,

Cause i'm of all importance,

I'm better than you,

When i earn little money,

From the things that I do"

" My bands a big shot now"

Well big they are,

But i hate you for what you said Dad,

I'll just stick to guitar,

"I can't look you in the eye"

That's what you were saying to me,

Well the tables turned on you,

Cause i know how bad you can be,

Leave me alone,

Never pick up the phone,

Cause i'll just hang up,

And leave you isolated on your own,

You now have two daughters,

but no son,

Oh isn't it fun,

When i'll be waiting for the moment,

That your time is done.