Today he got on the bus and since my friend was sitting with me he sat with another girl. He just recently cut his hair and he was talking to that girl he was sitting with. It made me so mad and jealous. I want to be the one he shows off his new hair cut to even though I talked to him about it last night. I ease drop on their conversation and they sound friendly. I hate being jealous it's just not me but now I have to deal with these feelings. The day passed by and it ended without me talking to him much. It was the worst day ever. I've had a shield put up to stop anyone from breaking my heart but he somehow got through. Anyways until next time journal.
