Heart Shaped Love

Heart Shaped Love - Chapter 21

Chapter 21

He shook his hand through his hair and turned to look at me. “Lexi, we need to talk”.

I had a horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach. I knew exactly what he wanted to talk about and I didn’t know if I was ready for it.

I gulped before replying. “Um… sure” I said unsteadily, ringing my hands together nervously.

He sighed. “Umm… well, it’s just that, well, umm…. I, well I just don’t know where to start” he said nervously, trying to avoid eye contact.

I sighed as I realized that this was just as awkward and nerve-wracking for him as it was for me. I took a breath and reached over to grab one of his hands in mine. “It’s okay” I said giving him a small smile.

 

He gave my hand a squeeze before gulping. “I… I just wanted to talk to you about what happened last week, if that’s okay with you” he said rubbing his neck nervously with the hand that I wasn’t holding.

I bit my lip nervously. “Yea… umm, it’s fine” I answered.

He sighed. “Okay, well, umm… I guess I just wanted to ask you if you ever thought about what would’ve happened if my parents hadn’t come home when they did?” he asked nervously.

“Carson, I know what would’ve happened. We would’ve kissed” I said smiling slightly but looking down at my lap.

“Yea” he said shaking his hair out of his face, and sighed.

He was about to continue when I interrupted. “Why did you do it?” I asked him.

He looked like a deer caught in headlights when he heard my question, and that made me all the more anxious for his answer.

“Wh… what?” he stuttered.

I sighed. “I asked you why you almost kissed me that day.”

He squeezed my hand before answering. “Truth?” he asked quietly.

I looked at him for a second and was shocked to see him actually really frightened. The last time I saw him this scared was probably when I was in middle school and it was his first day of high school. He had tried out for the basketball team with Jaxon and he was scared shitless that he wasn’t going to make the team. Him and Jaxon were scared and nervous for the rest of that week, but when they made the team, they went back to being their cocky selves.