Hello, everyone! I'll keep this short, for the poem is longer than I thought it would be! :-) I've been on a long absence lately. Part of it was due to finals and the performance of Bye Bye Birdie I was involved in, which ended last Sunday. However, there was another issue entirely that I thought y'all should know about.
Recently, I found out that a fairly close friend of mine has been bullied for the whole of his life: he cuts, burns, and is bulimic. Two months ago, he attempted suicide. I only found out about this recently, and it really hurt to discover that fact that Andrew--a beautiful person, kind and accepting--wasn't being accepted in his own life.
Due to how deeply that affected me, I've been gone for a few weeks. Today, I wrote this poem, just to get some things off my chest. I'll post a longer Author's Note next, but please, if you would, read it. Maybe someday YOU will help someone get through a hard time. :-)
"Missing You"
Sitting in a darkened room
Clutching to my chest a wooden square
Containing a constant reminder of
What horrendous crime I committed;
The guilt that flows within my body, throughout my veins
Held before my face
Eyes graze the pigment of the canvas
Expressive eyes, teeming with light, joy, and vivacious sparkle
Silky hair, gracing your skin in gentle but wild waves
And that smile...
Sharp pangs litter my abdomen,
Striking my heart,
As I force myself to look at the bittersweet likeness
The smile that could light up a room, cause the sun to appear on a rainy day
Pierces through the wall of glass
Stifling my heart
Salt water overwhelms my blank eyes
Spilling down pale cheeks
A ghost of what was once
Me
I pull the image to my chest
Looking away, trying desperately to hide
From the pain
As I finally succumb to
The hurt and helpless, hopeless desperation
I remember...
I
Remember
The night was clear, stars
Glittering brilliantly above
I smiled as we sat
Side by side
Arms brushing
What's up?
My own naive, oblivious words ring through my mind
Slicing open raw wounds
I need to talk to you.
You told me
YOU ARE READING
Missing You
PoetryWe are all missing someone. Unfortunately, in some cases, that person is gone before you can find the words to say.