Abandoned

Depressed....I guess

People say chin up

But I just feel like giving up

People say smile and it will all go away

But I feel like crying each day

Everything takes effort to do

This constant pain is so hard to live through

Lye in bed and see the day dawning 

Hate myself for waking up that morning

I know I need help and I know I need support

don’t wanna spend my life feeling this way, it’s just to short

But I just can't seem to speak out

Say what this feelings all about

Even if I did tell someone what could they do?

I don’t think they could fix this, do you?

I’m so sick and tired of feeling this way

I want to smile and laugh for real and be happy each and every day

There’s sometimes in the day when I forget about it all

When I smile and laugh, but when I remember it’s like a ten thousand foot fall

Do you know what its like for your eye’s to constantly sting

Do you know what it’s like to be happy and at the same time feel nothing

I don’t think I could end it without living the rest of my life

See my mind and body shudders when I think of picking up a knife

But I really don’t feel like I can carry on this way

Feeling so low and empty each and everyday

It’s so hard for me to admit to myself exactly what’s wrong

Hard for me to show myself that I’m not that strong

This idea of happiness, you may say I’m a little obsessed

But I think right now I finally see…. I’m depressed

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Doughnuts and ice cream

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