The same old feelings haunt me every night
I try to fight them but they find me every time
Each step I take .... Taunts follow in their wake
I try to decide which route to take
But one ends in hell and the other in grave
Nothing I do is ever good enough for you
Criticizing my every mistake
You break my hope ....also my soul
I try to pick up the pieces and start over
Trying to outrun your jeering shouts
I get trapped in a tornado of hate
The pressure of your expectations is too much to take
Caught in the crossfire of accusations
Smothered in the clutches of control
Tryna break free from your suffocating hold over my feelings
Fighting the deafening drumming of righteousness into my conscience
The ferocious breeding of conforming to boundaries
You stripped away my right to make mistakes
Tryna crawl my way outta this mess
Am on my knees with bated breath.
Waiting for love to wash away the regrets
Seeking mercy that's still far away
Wanting a peaceful end to cross out the volcanic beginning
But every new turn is a battle anew!
Its a loaded gun with a holster from hell
Bullets of hurt draw tears of blood
Do I be Me or who You want me to be?
I try to see your reason
But the meaning is a blur
My north is always your south
Your heaven .... my hell
Disagreements, disappointments mark our each day
It's a war of emotions!
Where I lose every time you win
And I die a little inside every time I see you lose on my victory
Desperately trying to meet you halfway
I fail every time, every way I try
Is there any way outta this dilemma?
