Letting Go
Bleak and barren the sky
Clouded over by a black veil
Its crushing weight thrust
Forcing down my shoulders
I can't fight back
My strength is gone
There is nothing to keep me standing
On the ground I lay
Too weak to but let out an unearthly cry
Curled on this cold, hardened ground
I am alone
He's not here anymore
To lift me off this ground
The memories rush
And I can't stop them
They're filling me, consuming me
And I can't let them out
These memories inside
A ray of gold blinds my eyes
Hidden in this darkness so long
Reaching down from the heavens
His hand extends to guide me
Alive, in my memories he lives on
The gray clouds still surround though
Save that small beautiful light
It isn't enough to break this weather yet
But maybe someday it will
The hand is still coming
But it stops short of me
He cannot reach, he's not enough
I've got to fight, I've got to stand
Agonizingly slow I press
Pushing up this weight
My muscles quiver, my brow sweats
But I can't give up, he's right there
I cannot get all the way
But it's enough, I can grasp his hand
Strength fills my body
And he pulls me up the rest of the way
The weight is still there
But I am stronger, I can hold it
He can't take me up to him, It's not time
But i could pull him down
I could, but I don't
I kiss his fingers, tears rolling down my face
And then I let go
Slowly his hand disappears
But it's not as black anymore
I feel a warmth drying my tears
I look up and see beyond those clouds
The sun, trying to break through
The clouds fight back
But now I have a say
As I reach up and clear some away
And through the mist, the sun is shining
