Different Faces, Different Phases

This was love

I close my eyes
And I see you
You hate me for leaving
But I had to

Begged for change
And I wasn't worth it
Lost me for a month
Now you done flourished

Tears stained on my bed
What did I do
Sacrificed my soul
But I still didn't end up with you

Fucked me over
But you're all I want
Faking in public
Telling him he's the one

But when I'm asleep
You're there
This doesn't make sense
You don't care

Am I broken
Cause I want you back
Or were you the only thing that held me intact

Not used to someone new
Lay in bed, wake up
He's great but he's not you

You say I'm happy
And you're done with me
Of all people you should know
I fake heaven easily

Screaming in my pillow
It's three a.m.
I woke up in sweats
Realizing I lost you again

It's on replay in my head now
All I see is you walking out
Tell me why I wasn't good enough
I was down for you but you didn't give a fuck

Got a good good guy now
He'd give me the world
But I still want you
I just hate myself

I can't stop writing
Thoughts are spilling everywhere
Every time you come back
You say you just don't care

Feelings are sloshing around 
I wish you'd pick just one
Do you miss me
Or are we really done?

The oxygen catches in my throat
Somehow I just can't breathe
You know you fucked me up
I just want my mind at ease

You damaged me
How could you leave
Promised I was your only one
Then you'd turn around and cheat

Blue eyes
Used to be beautiful
All I see are lies
Our relationship was pitiful

I miss you
I miss you so much
I can't take you back
My minds had enough

You don't want me anyways
I don't think you ever did
My hearts gone without you
I just need your kiss

Blow smoke in my face
I hated those cancer sticks
But I'm dying right now
Not used to this clean oxygen

God help me please
I wanna go home
Can't take this pain
I'm tired of being alone