There was no rain or thunder that dismal autumn day,
The sun and clear sky made the weather fair.
Sitting alone on the cool, leather couch listening,
I could never imagine the next words would cause my heart to tear-
The thought that would cause my heart to tear-
Why wasn't I there?
The day of rest was just as the day of the call,
But to see a warm smile break was rare.
Unable to look, I tossed a white rose down as my heart jumped into my throat,
I tried to convince myself she was in the Lord's care-
Yes, she was in the Lord's care-
But why wasn't I there?
The weeks went on and the days became cold,
The sadness was still hard to bare.
Laying in bed, I could see the event play out before me,
This sorrow was nothing to compare-
This dreadful thought was nothing to compare-
Why wasn't I there?
The months passed, but the thoughts remained consistent,
This burden was completely unfair.
Staring into nothingness, I could see her innocent face
But that's not possible, just a scare-
She's not real, just a scare-
Yet she mouthed, "Why weren't you there?"
I walk down the street for errands,
I pass a park with children playing and for a moment feel peace.
But across the street I see an image that sends me into turbulence,
It is the innocent little girl with fair blonde hair-
Dirt is caked into the fair blonde hair-
She mouths, "Why weren't you there?"
Years have passed, but nothing's improved,
The little girl appears out of thin air.
Each time she comes, her appearance is worse,
The pills only do so much, but I don't care-
I feel her touch, but I don't care-
She whispers, "Why weren't you there?"
