Helen Decou
They all tell me I am insane
that I should be put into some type of institution
all because I believe in things nobody else does
I believe I see things that nobody else can see
sometimes I wonder if maybe I am crazy
like everyone tells me
they fill my head with thoughts that arent my own
making me believe things that I wouldnt normally believe
they make me feel crazy
though I know Im not
they tell me im just in denial
most days I can ignore the comments and criticism
but not today I can't take it anymore
Breaking the mental chains keeping me in this horrid home
I rush past hands trying to hold me back
Clawing at my skin keeping me here
Soon I find myself stumbling though some woods
Pushing past branches and through bushes
Thorns tearing at my skins making me itch uncontrollably
My feet are bare and my hair in knots
And I realize that I am a mad women
Everything had been a lie
I feel despair take over
I found a rushing river and slowing descended into it
Knocking me off my feet
I let the current take me pushing and pulling in every direction
I no longer have a sense if direction
I close my eyes and let the water take me over completely.
