Between The Lines.

Please help.

Can't you see what's between the line? 
When I say
"I'm totally okay"
It means
I've been suffering through the day
I've lost my own way
When i tell you to walk away
It means
I really need you stay 
"I'm really fine" 
It's the best lie
Don't just tell me to try
I'm tired of feeling high
Just be by,
Be by my side 
I'm not shy 
I don't wanna hide
Look at me in the eye
And tell me that things will get better  
"Nothing really matter"
Cause you just smatter
My heart, you did shatter
And you left all the pieces here to scatter
"Everything is completly well"
I don't really want to tell
It feels like i'm in hell
I've really fell,
Lost everthing
All that's left is nothing
"I'm happy in the new life"
Yes, I'm happy with it
But I don't wanna lose my old friend
I don't want this to be the end

Can't you get the real meaning of the word? 
I'm sick and tired of this world
Hope you can really get the meaning
Even though you don't have this feeling
I don't know if i'm healing
But at least try to understand
Please hold my hand
And help me stand
I'm tired of listening to rock band
And lying on the land
Please help!

I've went in the wrong direction
My life it's just a desrtuction
I don't know  which section,
I must choose
I'm trying to be strong 
But i've been falling apart all along
It's just like a bad song
And it never ends,so long
Everything is simply wrong
I don't know where do I really belong.
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