THIS ISN'T AN UPDATE!
guys... I seriously thought I was over this depressing time. I was getting better really better but then BAM I hit rock bottom again.... I just feel like everyone is out to get me... I'm afraid of everything and I just wanna run away or kill myself.
Cause then life would be easy, people wouldn't worry about me cause I'd be gone. Dead or gone. I'd not need my friends to constantly be scared incase I slit my wrists again because it would be over with and slowly they'd forget me and it would be so much better, I've lost everyone. Well it feels like that anyways.
I was at my best friends the other night... And we were just chillin' on the couch, and he asked if I was okay. Friends can tell this sorta stuff, and I looked at him and I couldn't speak because I was just thinking about how he would react to my death, how my other two best friends would react aswell... And I couldn't talk because then I would explode... But he made me and I cryed, I cryed for so long and he just told me it would be okay... Told me not to leave and he'd never stop looking for me, He was scared.. So scared.
I've never seen him cry before, he's my big brother and he was crying because he's scared I, gonna die...
So now I feel worse because I feel so selfish, how could I do that to him? Two my other best friend that's lost a brother? To my other one?
But then I just feel like I can't go on... I just don't know anymore..
I'm sorry for this but you guys needed to know why I wasn't updating... If I don't update for a few more months then... It will be Sarah doing it because I won't be here anymore
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15 and rouge with two pups
Werewolf~ 3 Years earlier~ "RUN!! ELIZA! ELIZA RUN!" My father screamed at me, I watched as the rouges attack are pack. The pack that one day I was supposed to lead. The pack I grew up in. My Beautiful pack. I shifted and ran threw the woods. Blocking the s...
