poetry from a girl in love

forget

a few weeks ago,
all i wanted to do was forget.
i wanted to forget
going to the city with you at 2 am.
i wanted to forget
the sex.
i wanted to forget
how you kissed my fingers and told me i was ethereal.

i couldn't forget.
i couldn't forget, but i could stop caring.
i couldn't forget, but for once in my life i was able to fucking stand up for myself.
i couldn't forget, because you made me feel like something and for the millionth time in my life it got ripped right out of my hands.
but i could hate.
i could feel.
i could tell you how i really feel without feeling guilty because my job is to please.
i could deny you my body, and i could deny you my love, and damn it i will do it again.

because i, the woman who was so weak under your touch, am stronger than ever.
and i will never,
ever,
forget.