In loving memory

Memory lane

I've seen this place before.

I've seen that face before.

Let's take a walk down memory lane.

You tell me if things can ever be the same.

Seeking a friend, I found an obsession.

From what appeard to be an angel,

how could I miss those horns seeping through?

From that day, you opened a new door.

So I ask you, what the hell am I sorry for?

Through you, I found love, religion, friendship, expression...

I found life in you.

I put up a fight for you 

since its something you couldn't do

Even willing to go to jail for you.

All in the name of you.

Everynight, I watched you sleeping next to me

Woundering if you were dreaming of me.

I dated him because I couldn't have you.

I began to play games to trap you.

In our own little language, 

we expressed our love.

"Ai shiterru"

We'll never get caught.

If it wern't for you, I would have taken my life.

You lay awake worrying all night.

I call you in the morning and let you know that i'm alright.

During the day I was his.

During the night I was yours.

I gave you my body,

I gave you my heart,

I confused love for wicca

so, I would have gave you my soul

and like Alice, I fell into the rabbit hole.

With you I was in wounderland.

Everything fell into your hands.

Then came that day,

they took me away.

The one thing I didn't get to say...

"I admit it! I'm gay!"

They took me away and even after one day

Gone without a trace and i'm missing the beauty of your face.

I'm going insane.

I was with him because I couldn't have you.

I didn't know what else to do.

Repeatedly, in the closet...

I'm playing a game with you.

I was winning from the start with my eyes on the prize.

Your heart.

You took my man and I'll take yours.

I only wanted to break you

Like you did my heart.

Jealosy is a bitch and compotition didn't end it.

After all of our laughs and cries

I'm ready to face the truth

I came out and say "Peek-a-boo"

I honestly love no other but you.

But I want you to be happy...so what did I do?

I shared you and let him turn you black and blue.

You loved him more and yet, I never hurt you.

After a year of going back and forth,

I continue to put up a fight for a unfithful whore.

I asked you to marry me.

Lets have a baby.

Just you and me.

But wounderland has turned to reality.

I spy with my little eye a girl who's tryint to steal my wife.

What do you want me to do?

Get a sex change for you?

Will i ever be good enough for you?

You cheat on me and I cheat on you.

What ever you do comes back to you.

You cant keep your legs closed.

I see those horns seeping through.

From that day, everything ends.

We came a long way from where we've been.

You throw knives and I throw darts

but missing the bullseye which is your heart.

I move on and make a change

which drives you insane.

I released the demon and treat you like crap.

I've come to the conclusion you like it like that.

I'm closing this door and try not to look back.

Now taking a walk down memory lane, 

I ask you can things ever be the same?

Here I am in front of this closed door...

but what the hell do I have to be sorry for?