I'm drowning
I'm being smothered by my emotions
Shame, Anger, Grief...it's all weakness
And I can't overcome it
It's making me sick
I can feel it
Pressing on my skull
Churning my stomach
I want to scream
To let it all go
But I can't
I have to hide it all
Under a mask
Despite errors, I possess a wall
That cannot be broken
Nobody knows...
How I ache to cry all day
But I only indulge myself at night
That I blast music
To block my thoughts
How I scratch and bite myself
As a calming method
That I long for the relief of
Death
But it's building up
Swallowing me whole
Help me please!
For I'm drowning
And it's so comforting
The depression is normal
The fear
The nerves
The disgust
Is normal
Help me please!
For I'm drowning
Lock and key
Zip my lips
I feel it
I can't get away
It fills me
I'm so tired
I want to let it take me
I can't do it anymore
Help me please!
For I'm drowning
It scares me
How I dream of slicing my flesh
Wanting to bleed
The pain is welcome
It takes the agony away
Help me please!
Help me please!
For I'm drowning
And I'm going to give up